An almost burnt out mom

I had the most horrible day yesterday. Work was tiring. Then I fetched Nuha from school and stopped by the grocery store. Got home and lugged my grocery haul, I meant to buy ONLY long beans and eggs but ended up with 2 large packs of maggie, a bottle of chicken stock, a pineapple, some lime, chillies, salted eggs, long beans and eggs. I also forgot to grab Nuha's shoes at school so on top of my ever so heavy handbag and 2 large grocery bags, I also had to carry my toddler in one arm. Bear in mind I was wearing 4 inch platforms. 

Toddled my way up to my unit then started with dinner, while my toddler ran in and out of the kitchen- my kitchen has a heavy swinging door so the possibility of my toddler getting her finger slammed by it was huge. Then she got upset that I was home and not attending to her. Switched the tv to Hi5 (the most annoying jumpy colourful ppl u will ever see) and she started jumping along to it, making intervals to run to me to tell me she's upset with me for not playing with her). Everytime she came to me, bouncing up and down and letting out annoyed cries, I had to jump up and down singing the stupid Hi5 song at which point she will remember that Hi5 is in fact on tv and go scuttling back to enjoy the show. This went on five more times. 

I made a chicken, broccoli and tofu dish for her and masak lemak cili padi for her father and managed to locate the blender to make myself some sambal belacan and boil salted eggs. Thank god her dad came home as dinner was almost done and bathed her. I rushed in for a quick shower after she was done before all of us congregated to the front of the tv for dinner (the dining table is too occupied being a shelf to be used for actual dining). I fed her her food and she ate wonderfully for the whole of three mouthfulls. Then she decided it was more fun to spit out the food and smear it all over the floor. This went on two more times. After cleaning the floor I proceeded to eat my dinner at which point she climbed onto me and started throwing a tantrum (on me) for no reason other then not wanting me to eat. 

After a rather lively dinner, I gave her her flu meds, sprinkled with chocolate. She took the entire teaspoon and strained the chocolate with her teeth before hanging her mouth open (chocs safely secured by tounge) to let the meds drip out. my patience was hovering above none at this point. I laid her down on the couch and force fed her while holding her mouth open as advised as her doc. She formed and O with her tiny lips and sprayed me with the meds. OHMYGOD. At this point I wanted to run out the door and go eat ice cream- ALONE!!! why oh whyyyyy!! I was so freaking tireddd!! Now I had to clean the floor from the spit up meds, I had to clean the couch, I had to clean her and I had to clean myself!! AAAAAAArrggghhhhhh!!!!! I took her to the toilet and got her cleaned up- fuming mad that she had done what she did. Then she cried out mammaaaa and planted a kiss on my lips. 

And just like that... I was butter on hot pancake. Why oh Why do u do this to meeeee!!????

We were quietly watching tv when she suddenly got entangled in her shirt. Just like that. On her own. My kid is amazing.